My Future Looks Bright - Still Undecided

+ When I was a young child, I wanted to be a veterinarian when I was older. However, after I found out that some of the animals die, and that I would have to tell the family - I immediately gave up that dream and decided that there was no way I could do that.
+ After that, I decided that I would be a novelist and make all of my money writing books. I absolutely love writing (even today), but once I entered high school, I realized that I don't have even a smidgen of the talent that amounts to any of my favorite authors'.. So I decided that was out.
+ Then, after camping one summer in Tennessee, I met a TVA officer. I knew, at once, that working with plants and animals was something I could see myself doing, and also loving. Well, not all things are as easy as they seem. I was on the college track to getting a degree and becoming a Forestry Technician, I signed up for several agriculture classes at my high school and joined FFA. I was extremely happy and prepared - or so I had forced myself to believe.. A few complications prevented me from following that dream, so I dashed it away with the others.
+ I realized that my heart was in 'business' and that I had a knack for it. So, I took several high school business classes and the like. Aced them all. I had decided to open a bakery to manage. Well, I researched it alot, only to find out that you have to have a crap-ton of start-up money in order to open a bakery. So, it would take me several years before I could even hope to own my own bakery. This dream lasted until about a year after high school since - guess what - you don't have to attend college and have fancy degrees to legally open a bakery, all you need is the knowledge, ability, perseverance, and money to do so.
+ Eventually, that dream was lost amongst the others as my life continued on. One day, after discussing several things with my best friend, I decided I wanted to open up an equine sanctuary. It seemed perfect. All of my life, I always imagined myself living in a farm-type setting. I could never live in the city.. I would miss everything about the country (except for the heat!). I have done as much research as possible about all of this. It isn't out the window yet - but it isn't priority numero one, either.
Let's see how it all works out..

Time for This Birdie to Leave the Nest is Long Overdue

Pretty soon, Matt and I will finally be able to move into our own apartment. I'm really hoping that it will be sooner rather than later.. But the way my life works, everything is delayed (and I mean everything).
I've gone through everything that an apartment necessitates and I've prepared myself as best I can. Hopefully, I can get my license (longgggggg overdue). Once that happens, a job must follow. But after that? BAM. Apartment time. I literally can not wait. I'm so ready for this, it's ridiculous. I've put my life on hold for the last two years because of my parents (even though, apparently, it's all my fault - I guess my logic is all screwed up ... cause I can't see how that's possible).
Finally. Finally. Finally I will be able to begin my life with Matt (: I couldn't be more excited.

On another note...
I am already beginning to prepare for the annual Fall Camping Trip with Matt and Tori (+ guest this year - her new boyfriend). I'm already losing weight, buying my summer clothes, and we've put brand new equipment on layaway :D I want to fast forward!! Pretty much all I need to do is save up for the minimal primitive camping fee and buy the food and drinks! GAHHHH so excited.. I'm actually more excited about the freggin camping trip than anything. OH EXCEPT I'll be getting a new REAL bed (not some crummy futon or daybed or crap-bed that I didn't get to pick out). I'm buying my own bed. Which sounds lame and all - but it's happiness for me, so deal with it (:
< If I remember anything else.. I'll just update this post (since it's pretty short).

... And here it comes

With the start of this year, began the newest portion of my life. Relationships have grown stronger - while others have dwindled, time has healed many wounds - while tearing at new ones, and my life is about to change . Hopefully a lot sooner than it actually will, but nothing happens the way anyone hopes it would.

Recently, quite a bit of my fellow high school graduates have been either popping out babies or getting married/ engaged. Some days the pangs of womanliness moan to do the same; however, I do enjoy not having such drastic events to change my life.

As of right now, my priorities go as follows:
License.
Job.
Apartment.

After a certain point, other priorities will ensue and change my plans; however, those three things will be my basis of beginning my life with Matt. He's there alongside me, to aid me in any feat I must conquer/ overcome. He's always been there for me. I believe that's why I choose to rely on him so much nowadays, when I often feel I shouldn't. I make excuses for doing so; although, I know how it truly should be. Hopefully, once I have my license - everything else will be just within reach. Then I won't have to depend so much on someone who should worry more about himself, rather than me (although he assures me he is as happy as a clam helping me out and being there). I will forever acknowledge all of that he has done and will do for me. He is truly an amazing person.

Here's to moving forward.


And here's a timeline of events dated since my last post:

May
27 + Nickelback/ Bush/ My Darkest Days/ Seether concert in Louisville with my entire family

June
10 +Day trip to Freeman Lake with Jade, Brandon, Tori and Matt

July
28 +My 19th Birthday Party at Saunder's with Nick, Tori, Jade, Brandon, and Matt

August
2 +Jade aids in the birth of Bitty's last kittens/ is viciously attacked by Bitty
3 +Bitty has surgery to remove last kitten & gets permanently fixed

September
14 +Annual Camping Trip with Matt and Tori
30 +Jade's 19th Birthday Party with Tori and Matt

October
20 +Girls Night Out/ Tori & I make pumpkin cinnamon rolls, attend Field of Screams, and carve pumpkins +

December
12 +Girls Day Out/ Lunch at Ginza with Jade and Tori

January
16 +Mine and Matt's 4 year anniversary
30 +Matt's 21st Birthday

February
13 +Valentines Day with Matt (Matt's day off - Wednesday -)

Here are just a few of the pictures from some of these events (:
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Camping
Birthday Party at Saunders
My Birthday
Koolaid Tie-Dye
Birthday Princess